自己

有人这样形容我对自己的要求：
你拥有了一粒糖还不够，你要整罐糖果

我笑了

遇到瓶颈的我
看到我的下一步了

没有必要向任何人解释我为什么不这样，不那样
因为其他人并不在我的未来里
我自个儿有个谱
2013的to do list和2015前的to achieve list

丧事

陈绍安当年5天里3天他特地从Alor Setar赶来Jejawi出席papa的丧礼
顿时才了解
原来这两地的采访主任的友情那么好
那种有心,确实感激不尽
由于hometown远
明白很多在城市工作的朋友不能出席

只是刚好这一次
那葬礼是在星期天
我经历过每个人都要经历的事情
也深深明白那感受
人在离开后的最后一刻
最希望看到是来送最后一程的亲朋戚友
身为家属
那种感觉最强烈
也只有经历过才会知道

既然时间配合到
又是老邻居,老同学
我出席了那葬礼

我迟到了
还好还来得及跟车到Cheras火化场
KL的确实和Padang Sera很不同
KL的规模大

================================

人总是很奇怪
喜事总是一定会到
可能很多人认为
人没到,红包一定要到
又何必浪费没出息呢?

而白事总是很苛刻
总会计较到底和那些人熟不熟
不熟就不出席
可是他们往往忽略了
他们也必须经历这些
只是还不是时候

与其避忌害怕出席会招来不好的
倒不如真心的出席并且慰问家属
有心可以战胜一切

不要吝啬给予身边的人一些安慰
因为当你的亲人出事时
你也会希望有人来撑场
而你曾经给过的安慰
也会出现

可能有人认为
出席喜事代表对方有心祝福
我却认为出席白事者比出席喜事者有心
如果不同意这观点
那可稍微留意
当家里办喜事,办丧事
哪边的出席者会比较多?

这是我亲身经历了办丧事的感受

红。白２０１２

今年是红白的一年
喜事，几乎每年不间断
白事
确实第一次出席友人家人的

友人是我小时候就认识的
5岁上幼儿园时
总是看到小男孩和照顾他的阿姨在我家门面前经过
因为彼此住在同一个taman
上幼儿园也搭同一辆学生巴士
就算在不同幼儿园上学
到相同的小学，中学
甚至ｃｏｌｌｅｇｅ刚好在同一区
偶尔有保持联络
他也是出席我Ｃｏｎｖｏ的一班朋友

友人父亲的离开
让我想起papa的离开
也深深体会有些场面
很需要朋友的支持

２４年的朋友，支持你

安息吧，uncle
相信你一定会在Padang Sera的新居和ｐａｐａ相见欢

问

问自己
到底想要什么
我不停地问自己
要叛逆？这么老了，还叛什么逆
另一把声音说：放弃吧，种种迹象
继续往前

Queen - We Are The Champions

I've paid my dues -
Time after time -
I've done my sentence
But committed no crime -
And bad mistakes
I've made a few
I've had my share of sand kicked in my face -
But I've come through

We are the champions - my friends
And we'll keep on fighting - till the end -
We are the champions -
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause we are the champions - of the world -

I've taken my bows
And my curtain calls -
You brought me fame and fortuen and everything that goes with it -
I thank you all -

But it's been no bed of roses
No pleasure cruise -
I consider it a challenge before the whole human race -
And I ain't gonna lose -

We are the champions - my friends
And we'll keep on fighting - till the end -
We are the champions -
We are the champions
No time for losers
'Cause we are the champions - of the world -

获。2012

futsal因为当年不知道大伙儿为了什么事情没有继续
好像没有继续第三年表明参加

再续前缘已是4年后
练习时被派在前锋确实不习惯
偏偏每次练习都会进球=。=
我还是比较习惯在防守的位置
就算每一次都会被球击中
就算每次都会被complain 我挡住守门员的视线：P

今年和SAP constaultant们的队伍
男的没有backup
全都是主力
从一开始抽到“死亡组”
就没有太大希望
我们面临2对都很强
甚至还未正式开始比赛
就进去讨论要用的战术
包括每个人的位置

用对了的战术
让我们和CDO跟NDHS队伍1-1
打成平手
代价也很大
有好几位受伤了
进入半决赛
其中N对有着3位超强的球员
也是看好的冠军人马

第二名的我们面临另一组的冠军
也是那中心的大老板的队伍
这位据说和贝克汉曾经一起练球的人
给予他们的对手8-0，7-1

但是我们的主力球员们
很拼死拼活的
保持1-1的记录
有人受伤流血，有人扭到脚
有人过渡消耗，有人被球打到
有人用身体各部分去挡球
到最后的penalty点球来决定胜负
大老板的球没有进入龙门
而另一球被我队超好的守门员挡住
才让我们2-0
进入决赛

能踏入决赛
我们确实让现场很多人大跌眼镜
甚至一片寂静除了我对的声音
而我们也远远超越了我们以为的成绩
稳稳拿了成为亚军的一分
迈向全场总冠军的一步跨进了

而我们在隔天的篮球赛里
赢了冠军
5分之差把排在第二的另一队
远远抛在后面

每一场比赛
大伙儿都是
有血有汗
有泪有累
也有伤

全场总冠军的throphy会在11月份的Annual Dinner颁发：）

这一次
没有照片
只有文字

记录

和友人提起我在面子书写的东西
害怕 当开始记录
也深深明白
不会再重犯
那种“外冷内热”
见到面装不太熟
私底下却很熟
我
老了
哈哈

Learning . 学习中

吴淡如曾经在她的书提到
她每一年
都会学一样东西
虽然不精
但是过程和经历才是重点

回想几年前
和kim lee兴致勃勃报名日语班
后来因为没有勤练习
她就一直升班
我还在原地踏步
重读了Beginner 1 (B1)那班
几个了
却在B2时
因约会而常广课
导致跟不上
就没有再继续

在日月潭尝试陶艺
喜欢上那
掌控在自己手中
要怎么做都可以的泥
烧出来
不怎么样
却很满足

阅读
是我近几年保持的态度
曾经为了准备而看两性相处的书
后来渐渐明白
并找到自己想要的
沟通
看是简单
却困难的一点
要找到可以和自己沟通到的人
包含了对方的见识与经历
或者常常update自己
而不是一个话题
没有两三句话就不能继续的人

从阅读里
延伸到烹饪
是今年的事
同事们偶尔
会带自己的作品并分享
而我
选择了巧克力：）
并要从巧克力延伸到和巧克力有关的甜品

Dark Side - Kelly Clarkson

again, I love her song.

===========================


"Dark Side"

There's a place that I know
It's not pretty there and few have ever gone
If I show it to you now
Will it make you run away

Or will you stay
Even if it hurts
Even if I try to push you out
Will you return?
And remind me who I really am
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Like a diamond
From black dust
It's hard to know
What can become
If you give up
So don't give up on me
Please remind me who I really am

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away
Just tell me that you will stay
Promise me you will stay
Don't run away
Don't run away
Just promise me you will stay
Promise me you will stay

Will you love me? ohh

Everybody's got a dark side
Do you love me?
Can you love mine?
Nobody's a picture perfect
But we're worth it
You know that we're worth it
Will you love me?
Even with my dark side?

Don't run away
Don't run away

Don't run away
Promise you'll stay

Source :
Video from : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H5ArpRWcGe0

Lyric from : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/kellyclarkson/darkside.html

喜喜

曾经hangout的kaki
要结婚了
呵呵
还记得当年
友人说，他会是我的ji mui如果我结婚
而如今
我是他的兄弟了
恭喜 ：）

从中学SPM的成绩开始
自己不断和他比较
这一次
他还是赢了

忘

记得很久以前
友人问我
你当年怎么走出过去？
我说我的方式
没有人想要经历
因为
当时的我
有了失去亲人的伤痛
才掩盖另一种痛

Room For Rent, Bayan Villa Townhouse @ Seri Kembangan

Bayan Villa Townhouse@ Seri Kembangan 中房出租(Fully furnished with new Aircond,new house)

1.出租               ：中房 (有两间中房，这间比较小)
2.房租/屋租     ：RM450  (包水, 包unifi 5mb,包用Diamond水机）
3.电           ：不包括 (客厅, 大房和中房均有冷气,因此对分）
4.条件             ：华裔(prefer女)，准时交租金，清洁及整齐(每个星期轮流清理屋子)，不抽烟，没有宠物
5. 人数　　　：　１人
5.压低金        ：两个月 RM900 + 屋租一个月 RM450 + Utility RM100
6.特点             　：环境安静，邻居多数都是家庭，空气清新，因为开窗就看到公园，17分钟车程可到cyberjaya工业区，MMU, UPM, The Mines, Putrajaya, KL
7.迁入日期      ：15 /07/2012
8. 房间设备　：　单人床，冷气，风扇(Ceiling Fan)，衣橱(壁柜)，书桌
9. 其他设备     ：Diamond水机，洗衣机,unifi 5mb，沙发，厨灶,煤气，冰箱，热水器，微波炉，吸尘机，餐桌，晒衣架，厨房壁柜，饭桌，24小时保安
9. 其他补充　：欢迎工作人士或学生 (晚上不喧闹），由于这里比较里面，你必须自备交通工具
10. 联络         ： Jocelyn 0126208227
11. 状态         ： 待出租

Avril Lavigne - Wish You Were Here

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you
It's not like that at all
There's a girl
That gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walked through it

[Pre-Chorus:]
And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Verse 2:]
I love
The way you are
It's who I am
Don't have to try hard
We always say
Say it like it is
And the truth
Is that I really mi-I-iss

[Pre-Chorus:]
All those crazy things you said (things you said)
You left them running through my head (through my head)
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here.
All those crazy things we did (things we did)
Didn't think about it, just went with it (went with it)
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

[Bridge:]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go let go let go let go)

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go

(Let go let go let go let go let go let go let go)

[Chorus:]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here
I wish you were here (I wish you were here)
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Damn, Damn, Damn (Damn)
What I'd do to have you
Here, here, here (Here)
I wish you were here.
Damn, Damn, Damn
What I'd do to have you
Near, near, near
I wish you were here.

Source : 

Lyric from : http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/avrillavigne/wishyouwerehere.html

MV from : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VT1-sitWRtY&ob=av2e

Lady Antebellum - Just A Kiss

Lying Here With You So Close To Me
It's Hard To Fight These Feelings When It Feels So Hard To Breathe
Caught Up In This Moment
Caught Up In Your Smile

I've Never Opened Up To Anyone
So Hard To Hold Back When I'm Holding You In My Arms
We Don't Need To Rush This
Let's Just Take It Slow

Just A Kiss On Your Lips In The Moonlight
Just A Touch Of The Fire Burning So Bright
No, I Don't Wanna Mess This Thing Up
I Don't Wanna Push Too Far
Just A Shot In The Dark That You Just Might
Be The One I've Been Waiting For My Whole Life
So Baby I'm Alright
With Just A Kiss Goodnight

I Know That If We Give This A Little Time
It'll Only Bring Us Closer To The Love We Wanna Find
It's Never Felt So Real
No It's Never Felt So Right

Just A Kiss On Your Lips In The Moonlight
Just A Touch Of The Fire Burning So Bright
No, I Don't Wanna Mess This Thing Up
I Don't Wanna Push Too Far
Just A Shot In The Dark That You Just Might
Be The One I've Been Waiting For My Whole Life
So Baby I'm Alright
With Just A Kiss Goodnight

No I Don't Want To Say Goodnight
I Know It's Time To Leave, But You'll Be In My Dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Just A Kiss On Your Lips In The Moonlight
Just A Touch Of The Fire Burning So Bright
No, I Don't Wanna Mess This Thing Up
I Don't Wanna Push Too Far
Just A Shot In The Dark That You Just Might
Be The One I've Been Waiting For My Whole Life
So Baby I'm Alright 

Ooooh, Let's Do This Right, 
Just A Kiss Goodnight
With A Kiss Goodnight
Kiss Goodnight

source from : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v_yTphvyiPU&ob=av2e
http://www.elyricsworld.com/just_a_kiss_lyrics_lady_antebellum.html

another favorite song from Lady Antebellum after that Need You Now.

Found familiar places like Big Ben, Eiffel Tower and Musee De Louvre from this MV :)

London Spring 2011 Day 25 : Dining @ Thai Square

quite ok for the squid

       Scallop won't taste so fishy as they used to eat not too fishy.

Mango still not bad

Date: 02062011

Venue: Thai Square, Richmond

Thanks to the staff there who kept my camera. I left it in the restaurant and managed to get it back after that :)

The food were quite ok with average price.

Lou Sang 2012 @ Green View Restaurant 长青海鲜饭店

fresh salmon

the signature Prawn noodles

Prawn noodles served by waitress

Fried fish... a bit fishy

yum yum crab cooked with salty egg

pork nuckles, well as expected, Chinese not good in this

their mango was so sweet

We enjoyed the food very very much (but not the price).
As usual, its a bit pricey here
but its worth for it's famous Sang Har Mee (Prawn noodles).
and their mango also very delicious.
The first lousang with GSKian :)

London 2011 Day 22 : Walking Tour @ 30May

the oldest thingy...

see the clock is not in numbers :D

 Do you notice one of the windows has been covered up by using bricks?

Radley's Believe It Or Not just opposite Picadilly Circus

Picadilly Circus - a bz place in the heart of London in Zone 1

Muji 无印良品.... :) 

One of the company distributed the films

joined this 25 mins walking tour
this was a free tour as I redeemed it from the one day tour the day b4 :)