Happening Nite

14 Sept, Fri

looking forward for this night quite some time after few times of postpones.

Again, we back to Bumbubali
again we all start chit chatting, makaning and drinking
again we meet ex coleagues and new friends

But this time, 5 of us went for the 2nd ground as we planned
Qbar was our next destination
Feel wanna release after few weeks have been tied up with problems and tix
(even dreamt of my tix on sat >_<)
juz wanna release and release
chivas + dance + play are the main things that night
each of us really like to help each other pour the drink
until we start playing the Ice
getting crazy and wilder
throw each other with the Ices
until our table and place so wet
until the cleaner had to come and mopped it

no matter how crazy but i still so awake
i tot i will act wildly
i tot i will cry loud loud
but everything is under my control
may be i oredi cried on the way i came

something happened and make that night really happening
feel very glad that night so safe after they reject to be friend with other

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Recap Wed night
went to the Grapes And Hopes Again
tat pub is quite happening every wed nite
got ppl singing there
got many orang hitam gathering there
went v a fren
chit chatting until middle
suddenly a male orang hitam sit down and join us
quite uncomfortable with a stranger juz intro himself and join our chat
i start guessing the real purpose
i know i should't have that thought but may be i lost trust to ppl esp guys

when its time for us to leave after 3 Jar of heineken
wannted to pay v CC
manatau that lousy bar said the CC machine spoiled
have to paid by cash
we not enuf cash
my fren go to the atm nearly
juz the few mins he left
and i was alone in that pub
this pub were full v orang hitam
omg i m so so so so scare
can't imagine wat will happen to me if they all attack me

wat a terrible experince~!!

**since when i keep drinking recently? i think i need fresh air, looking forward to have fresh air at the top of that shan ding again
i know this time the felow accompany is sure is not my goodfren marcus anymore**
Time will never turn back

CCAM Award

IBM AP CRM Helpdesk Team: Azmi(1.5), Karen(TL), Susan, Yoke Fun, Jocelyn, Izumi, Tomomi, Liz, Afiza

Not In The Photo: Kim Lee(1.5), Rozaidi, Jeff, Asha(OM), Celina
In The Team between Apr 2006 to Apr 2007: Ray, Yvonne, Thomas, Tat Kee, Mizan, Erin, Rezal, Audrey(ex-OM)


Trophy
Bronze Award in 8th National Contact Center Awards


CCAM Award : Bronze Award year 2007
Category : Best In-House Services Contact Center (under 50 seats)


CCAM Award : Bronze Award year 2007
Category : Best In-House Services Contact Center (under 50 seats)

Missing Disturbance Days

mumbling to my fren last nite
i said

miss the days in Phase 1 where got ppl passby my place sure cubit me
althogh is little pain but is fun (mmuahahaha, since when i bcome 被虐狂？)
but then his Nokia team move to TTDI branch and since then no more ppl cubit me liao
hahahaa anyhow he also my netfren b4 meet him in rcc

miss the days where everytime my dear 2k colleague passby my place sure play my calendar
his hands always so itchy until i had to grabbed it back
he left rcc 1 month ago

miss the days where always kena shocked by someone by knocking on my table if i m dreaming that time
luckily the period is not long or else i will kena heart attack
he oredi left ibm where juz know him < 1 month

the next will be our dearest sunshine guy in 2k
if he left 2000 oredi, then nobody else i know in the 2000 liao..
so pity
then no more ppl always show wanna shoot me v his hand, no more ppl help me buy fruits

y those cutie coleagues all left??
Y Y Y Y Y.........
may be they have to go back from where they belongs to
who knows
i will never know

心情

不知是开心还是悲伤

反正有好消息也有坏消息
很难得，我们 AP CRM Siebel 竟然会夺得CCAM 8th Annual Contact Centre Awards 2007's Bronze "Best In-House Service Contact Centre of the Year (Below 50 Seats)"
印象中，以前只有IGA和SIA Team 会夺得
虽然只是Bronze 还不错啦

另一方面，知道另一个同事今天是最后一天
太突然了 才认识他不久
就离开
还以为他是在开玩笑
看来明年futsal已没有看头 更不会有PonyTail出现了

应该高兴 魔鬼教练 走了

Putrajaya

went to putrajaya watched that fireworks v wanling last sat.
walked for 7 to 8 km go to the funfair there to watch..
raining night made the environment more cold

and the lights in Putrajaya town looks nicer







lights make everything difference


Putrajaya night view


Fun Fair


PICC

Pub In CyberJaya

food


Irish Beeer~


relax after working

Peter And Jane

Peter And Jane was a kindergarten in Kangar
was not very good in knowing ppl during that time..
shy? or does like to mix around?
not really recall
but there oredi meet some ppl who also bcame classmates in primary schools
like wan ling (who looks lke little princess that time), yee zhen, chaojie, pamela, lin mei, yig hui, ah por



how many do you still can recognise in the photos?? :)

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Saw a teacher in the Peter And Jane at Block Damai and take the same lift with me
passby one of the shop lots and find out there is a kindergarden at my block..
since when there is another Peter And Jane Kidnertarden here?

hahah could be open by the teacher last time in Kangar Peter And Jane Kinderkarten..

Busy Busy Busy

today and 2molo would be the bz days for us..
due to 2 of our dear coll are enjoying their leave now..
users keep calling and asking the status of some issues
also keep in touch to check with us via Sametime..
how nice if i can put the Sametime status to Busy..

*went to watch fireworks at Putrajaya last Saturday night v one of the piggy friend, wan ling
*enjoy alot and will update the blog once got time
*joel piggy article remind me the days of Chorus Speaking of Snow White And The 7 Dwarfs, hai hooo hai hoo~*

Dream

Still got 11+days july only pass
Had a terrrible nightmare again last nite
this dream was so real
until i stunned

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i read the newspaper only find out my dear Ann Ann Jie Jie hurt in an accident..
in the report, doctor said sheonly have 50% for the brain to function..
rush to the place, its too late
she alerady passed away..

i was like oh no.. how come.. Y Y Y
do the person in july is her?
i cannot believe my eyes.

all relatives go to a place for the funeral..
the place we stayed is quite unique
each room has limited space.
I could hardly get into the sleep
as i dun wan close my eyes
hurt keep crying thinking of her death
really cannot believe my eyes
the gal who intro me to listen Michael and Victor song in 1995
until i also bcome one of their fans for so manyyears
the gal who go to Fish Leong and Michael Wong concert just disapeared suddenly
the gal i treat her as my big sister who always play v me during my childhood juz leave me like tat
i totally cannot accept it.
feel like something in the heart is missing

and duno how long it pass, i juz awake from my dream.
its a terrible nightmare
and i still wwanted to know
who is the person in July..
I Wonder...

**after awake, i decided to do something i won't regret>> to have photo with all the frenz from nowonwards**

Thankssss

last nite chat v cheh hang.. wow this ppl really rare to catch him online
he will come to kl recently
well had to grab some time to meet v this senior..
gonna take the chance really thanks him for the days in 2ndary schoool
hahaha bcoz of him, i got really good memory.

Thanks again,哲航 >> for the Xue Hai Xue Ji and Pengawas Keceriaan~
and
sorry if i disappointed during PK that time.

not smooth

duno y recently many things are not that smooth
even juz now oredi join the wanita.net chat room also being kicked out by the system
yesterday went to petrol station, use right hand to take the nozel and my right thumb juz no energy and force to use 2 hand to carry that nozel
gosh thumb is not tat pain oredi
i can feel wat is the feeling if one day i old..
juz like u wanna do something but u can't do it anymore

rainny day is a nice day~

很努力的抬头望着天花板，不让眼泪掉下来
很想哭
明明是很讨厌 为何却陷了下去
朱思玲，你真没用

Moody Moody Moody

Today found out something and this proved my guess is correct..
i nearly fall to someone who is not supposed to.
gosh quite dislike those who like to play UG
wtf
hahahaaa
i should aware it early oredi if i notice more
>to those like to play UG: better change the status to other status in F site as this can aviod many things
I had to fast fast find other to fall in order to get myself out of this stupid hole
wakakakaa

SponSored Child

Get my first ever credit card in the beginning of August
thinking what is the first thing i planned to do
selection: 1. go to Sponsor a child of World Vision (www.worldvision.com.my)
2. go to www.Golden-Boronia.com online buy my favourite Nougat (thanks Zoe Yaw bought some Nougat from Australia for us)


Reason:
Sponsor Child-
1. just wanna do something i can contribute little help
2. World Vision keep having ads in the radio and since i din join for the "Hungry for HOPE - 10th Anniversary 30-Hour Famine" hence i juz do something other than that

Nougat-
1. Love this nougat (especially original crunchy) when WanLing bought it few years ago from Aus
2. Went to Perth few years ago and bought few packs of 1KG Nougat from there (that time 1KG = RM 68 or more)
3. Find out this is sold in Msia Jusco 100gm for RM13 or RM14 (means 1KG = RM130 or RM140)
4. If online buy this 1KG pack juz $28.60 AUD (could be around max is RM80)

Selection:
-I choose the 1st one, is to sponsor a child
-
Fares, Zakaria Ali from Lebanon
-a 9 years old child who is not having any siblings (sounds familiar,haha)
-not yet started write any mails to him and quite looking forward to receive his first mail.
-quite exciting as if i oredi got 1 child (muahahaha)

The World Is Small

This morninng one of my PIG fren called.
wow what happened do Joel called me?
then only found out one of PonyTail team member is her cousin
wat a small small world haha
and she misunderstand and tot the one i told wanling was her dear cousin
muahahaha wat the funniest joke

谷底

接二连三都是坏消息
心情很纳闷，又要搬家了吗？
好累哟
唉，车位没了，真麻烦
希望等下练球时心情会好转
不知道那魔鬼教练又会怎样了
还蛮期待这次的futsal。

FutSal

last week being informed by KL that our name are in the name list of Futsal..
oh my god.
fine..looks like being "forced" and "cheated"

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Monday, 20th Aug

Our first ever traning in the "club house" of cyberjaya.
wat a nice place to play squash, badminton, swimming, futsal, tennis etc
a very nice environment for the residents here
first time meet up other team members of our team
first time play the futsal
Hema, Shirley, KL and Me start out first time play futsal
our dearest trainer is.....
quite "torturing" momoent..
after 45 mins of non stop running and chasing the ball
the feeling of vomitting started as v just finish our dinner (just sandwish) 1 hour ago
learn a good lesson
>> cannot eat too full b4 the match start>>
> still not even know the totaly ppl in the team and duno the team name yet.

Tuesday, 21 Aug

We feel not good in running, hence, kl and me go to gym after work.
looking for the futsal shoes and i bought the wrong kind
continue workout running in the gym later

Thursday, 23 Aug

Tranning of futsal >aim is to meet up all other members > has been cancelled due to many reasons
quite disappointed as everything is ready hahaa
our team name is PONYTAIL

Friday, 24 Aug

Wanted to had extra tranning at the field as both of us need to train more
continue being "torture" by our 魔鬼教练, Xav
kicking, runnnig, passing ball in the rain

Saturday, 25 Aug

The time has come.
Ponytail members: Paul (captain), Xavier, David, Hema,KL,Shirley, Me (except Sharma)
First Match: Ponytail VS Play For Fun
Result: 2-2 > draw

2nd Match: Ponytail VS Kickers
Result: 1-2 > lose
Comment:
>first and 2nd match, we did't use tactic to play, nobody defence. Left leg kena kick by the opponent guy player in 2nd match when both of us kick the ball. Nowt that part is OO Cher liao.
>good shot of Xav in the 2nd match first kick of the ball and thus we get 1 ball.

3rd Match: Ponytail VS Be Winners
Result: 2-1 >win
Comment:
>Be Winners is a strong mixed team as these members always having traning for the futsal. B4 the match, we had to win over them in order to get a place in the final.
>We start to use some tactics. Some ppl go chase the ball and some defence it. Haha Paul get the point and ask me to defence in front of him and thus also kick out many balls.. It works.
>quite surprised when we win over them kekek
>quite enjoy of this match as we oredi improved ourselves

Final: PonayTail VS Play For Fun
Result: 1-1 > draw, Penalty: 3-3> draw, last ball: lose
this is a touch match. 3 of the guys take turn to be the goal keeper, and play in the match (Rules: Goalkeeper (guy) + 3 gals player and 1 guy player in a match)
Comment:
>accidentally use hand to touch the ball and cause 1 penalty kick. Luckily kick is out, or else i m the culprit.
>we have 1-1 draw i the match, penalty kick is the moment we waiting for. Manatau, all the balls kick by guys all in, but by gals all out.
>referee decided to throw the silling to decide striker of goalkeeper of the penalty.
and we really no luck, opponent to be the stricker and hence our goalkeeper unable to catch the ball.

And then v bcome the 1st runner up.

What a good play and experience of the futsal
>fun, exciting, tired, hurt


Xavier, KL , Jocelyn, Paul, Hema , David, Shirley (3 guys played for mix group and men group)


my Jersey


with the medal


魔鬼教练, Xav


captain, Paul


sporty look


result after kena kicked by ppl


medal(front)


medal(back)

听者有意

昨天和婉琳通电话，和她提起那个似曾相识的人。
就说道：“我之所以会有feel。。（是因为他很像我们的senior）”讲到feel而已，就被她误会了，其实正解是会有那种熟悉的感觉，是因为他很像我们的senior。

真是被这位好友咋到=。=

刚刚找到他的friendster，也很肯定他并不是我们的senior。
但为何总觉得曾经见过他？？
觉得自己很莫名其妙。

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思念是一种病

当你在穿山越岭的另一端 我在孤独的路上没有尽头。。。

love this songs without any reason
miss someone could be one kind of sickness
could be you already used to it
could be always motivate you do something
could be make you stronger
many many could be

Rush HOur 3

This is another box office movie of Jakie Chan. He seems to have the faith whenever he invoved in Hollywood movie and sure the movie is not well response as his Chinese movie.

Still can recall few years ago, his comedy + action movie of Around The World In 80 Days, the response was quite bad. Mr Tung concluded that Jackie Chan only can have a good response for his Chinese movies but not any of his Hollywood movies.

Recently some radio station keep promoting his Rish Hour 3. Even his trailers looks interesting and funny but still wonder how well for the response of this new movie as this movie also action + comedy?

I wonder and looking forward to this.

巧遇

冷冷的天气 又在走廊遇到他
他原来也是合约的 还以为他会是员工
他的类型 说不出像谁
曾经看见他在走廊通电话 也许他已经结婚了
也或许他有了她
不敢胡思乱想 不想再陷入谷底
知道他的位子换了 只是肯定他的英文名是左

有时就是那么巧 会在走廊或电梯前遇见

More Than Meet The Eyes

duno y... recently not able to put any title when creating the blog

yesterday when finish work, met J when waiting for lift
well, guess that ppl also finish same time
walk to the parking place v my colleague
and J was following us behind..
kekekeke

HomeTown

back to hometown and enjoyed 9 days +
went for breakfast v papa one of the days in Coffee's shop
met his mama and eventually i never think of asking her how or where is coffee now when she was talking v my papa
haha bit regret after i finished the breakfast
as Coffee is the person who i really dun have his news since he grad from our school and there are no senioors' friendster got link v him :(

another breakfast morning v papa in lai lai coffee shop
accidentally saw lim yee lin's bro and another one senior, not really knew them well in 2ndary school last time

waiting for the Friday and Sat which i oredi planned to visit Jennifer after quite a long time never meet her in Penang
haha very curious who is the lucky guy and they are really really enjoy their life now
plan was changed when ah hui koko is back to Msia now.. wow.. wat a good news

cann't remember how many years didn't meet him when the last time met him was on his wedding days
could be > 9 years or more
it should be his first time of their whole family (his wife+3 sons) back from Ireland
since he was going to have a party in 2nd aunty house, so Fri plan of overnite in Jen house was cancelled

this is the 2nd big gathering among our relatives after Chui Ling Jie Jie wedding ceromony~yeah~~

party always fulll of foods, dessert, drinks, kuih muih, laksa
guess we would be the first family who leave that place after 9 something and ended up by taking photos v their family..
kekeke.. yes.. this is the one i want, just wanna to collect more photos when having fun time v cousins who are not always meet>> at least, i won't regret (just like ah heong koko one will never have the chance to take photo v him)
and i m still wondering who would be the person in "july"? well time will prove it
just wish everything is fine and everyone is healthy

back from the party, listerning some story from papa..
haha always like to hear story
juz being told some sad news, about one relative bcoz of the gambling and owe huge amount of $$
as a result, the wife need to build some story in order to borrow (get) $$ from relatives
many ppl already kena
this is quite sad..
gambling and ignore the job is very bad
aiii, this might cause one of the ppl kena in "july"?

from the day i step into 2ndary school, my papa even warn me not to patto during study time
and never never discuss v me more than that
but bcoz of this kind of incident (no, is after i working), papa even request me not to find these kind of ppl and here are the 3 NO>> No Taking Drug, No Gambling and No Drinking

well drinking, probably, to him, someone who drink sure will gamble or take drug gua
no drinking?? wah quite difficult to find such ppl one, normally nowadays if someone smoking, sure that guy also got drink but might not regular only
gosh, this means that, if want to find someone who no drinking = wanna find someone who also din smoke

dun want to think further anymore

ok i finally met Jennifer and her Kevin (or kelvin) 4got oredi haha
both of them quite match just waiting for their red boom
everytime met Jen, she always ask me for my resume, ask me to join her in Penang
3 hours meet is just nice to meet them in Queenbay Mall
well, her bf is quite nice person and really good in communication

they left to attend the wedding dinner and i back to the central court in Queensbay mall, i stil saw GSC event of Harry Porter was still going on.
saw my exclassmate, eric,he was still bz with his event, together with the marketing manager, Giak Lian and another one looks like Justin if not mistaken
this Harry Portar movie is not distributed by GSC hence event is handle by marketing dept but not distribution dept
Giak Lian is not much changes but i quite looking forward to see pui yee again and some 8tv shooting team. ahahaa but could be no chance anymore
told my mama this is wat my life 2 to 3 years ago when she saw the event

and more ppl i met in Queensbaymall . no, it should be husband and wife
suddenly saw this husabnd and wife when i was on the phone
well, penang really a small place, any floor also can meet hometown ppl
both of them not much diff from their wedding photos hahaa sumore they both looks quite enjoyed

almost miss out 1 thing, after few years, back to visit the dentist Tan again.
not really know whether he can recall who m i as i was a regular customer since i was 3
went there for check up and "wash teeth"
(after wash teetth and bloog donation, hope won't get any xue guang zhi zai liao)
well, he advice me to use floss else my teeth going to have 2 "hole" and visit him after 6 months
ok i will if i remember :P

other days at home, keep on switch channel to 31 TVBSASIA, just to watch Rynn Lim's MV.. hahaa
duno is his company throw lots of $$ to promo or TVBS ASIA like to show his MV, whole day can see few MVs of him
quite enjoy~~ :)

NightMare

Had a nightmare recently
dreamt of being chase by the authority
as a result of burning too much of dramas.. haha
in the dream keep ddestroying all the things i collect
broke them into pieces and throw it away
then keep running
the feeling quite terrible..

失望。。。。

它鸡蛋糕！！！！*（#*￥*（%*—#￥*（%￥%……#%￥%#
什么道理嘛。
根本就是偏帮
讲就天下无敌，做就无声无息
越来越有对某些尤歧视了！！！

受伤了

凌晨3点, blog到一半
拿起刀子，不小心割伤了手指
自然反应还割伤了另一个地方
果然很黑
刀子并没有血
而2个伤口不断流出血 但并没有疼
结论是：流血并不会疼，反而是一些事会比流血更疼
不会在凌晨时分碰刀子了
真是血光之灾~~

“津津了道”的朋友

和朋友在车上谈到了SG的STYLE，KIA SU，炫耀等等
但并不是每个SG的人都那么SGRIAN
至少AH JEN的朋友，WIN不是那样



WIN第一次来马逛逛，而我和JEN充当了导游
从WANGSA MAJU到云顶，KLCC到SRI PETALING夜市，更到了SENTUL的NAILIS
短短3天的相处，让我见识到他的友善，贴心，细心与GENTLEMEN
身边的朋友，并没有遇到一个那么细心与GENTLEMEN



WIN可以因你一个小小的颤抖，很贴心的给你披上外套和给你买热饮料
也很自然而然的会让女生走在前面，很GENTLE的以LADIES FIRST为主
凡事都会细心聆听，很尊重女生
更不会像其他人一样很过于AA制
每当结账时，我们都会很自然的打开各自钱包各付各的；
WIN都会自然的在我们还来不及反应时付帐(不像其他人很怕被人欠钱)，当然我们都会在过候还他，至少他这举动，并不时是每个男生的习惯(至少在本地不会是一种文化)，也许在国外生活过的人都会比较GENTLE吧(也许他们都习惯了这种礼仪)

但很多时候他都坚持作东，搞得我们很不好意思，虽然我们知道他是要答谢我们身为地主之谊，到处陪他逛逛
做短暂的导游还很不错嘛



虽然大马很多东西不如他人，但是还是会很骄傲的介绍自己的国家给其他人
3天里,真的很IMPRESS 我

释怀

今天依然是没有计划而行的一天
对我来说 比较喜欢unplan
至少不会重复的过活

MSN一直开着 直到TS PING我
然后和KH & TS“吃”下午茶
最后决定在曼哈顿鱼市场解决
再逛下商店
晚餐继续有LH的加入

而在这儿之间 也不时讨论一些成人话题
开始还以为 会尴尬
怎知会和曾经有暧昧的朋友 还能侃侃而谈
谈到更深入
看来已经放开了 甚至还可以大夥儿相约看SHUTTER导演所执导的鬼片
也更会披上保护色 以自我保护
逃避 就是所选择的保护
只要对方跨前一步 就会相对地退得远远的

Told Her

I sms wanling bout the KC dream..

haha.. as usual..

she keep advice me to ask tat ppl for yum cha together v CH

really cannot imagine IF 3 of us go for yum cha..

well, again, i m the kind of ppl always feel shy to ask ppl out for yum cha.. furthermore>> go out v sumone i never talk to him but just use face expression and eye sight to comminucate. ehmmm .....

滴血

很想拿回我的书 顺手拨电给他
预料中 又被他羞辱了
炫耀ClubMed 有多好玩
在踩我 现在的我 是在玩 而不是工作
要像他一样才算是在工作
心 又在滴血了

梦。。

昨晚又发了个怪梦
梦到了CK和他的前女友复合了
梦里的我竟然很受伤
我到底是怎么了
是太久没有看到他更新部落而想知道他的近况
还是。。。
不敢想太多
梦，也该醒了吧

忧.心

就要进入农历5月了，离7月不远

心底还是会担心，到底那会是谁



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上次papa来KL时，和他见一面

无端段被他把我拉入另一个“地区”，唉

看来他还对这游戏还蛮热心

天哪

只希望他别跌得太伤

更别希望越大，而失望更大

不想看到浪费--已经没有能力再浪费了

我怀念的。。。

我问为什么 友情竟变得那么淡

而你为什么 只对那东西有兴趣

我该了解你很享受 现有的这一切

早该知道回不到从前 还不愿意接受

还是希望 至少会收到生日祝福


从什么时候　我们渐渐没有话题

一起出去时　却炫耀现在有多好

甚至常常口不择言　　想刀一样尖利

总是微笑面对　　是要保住友情

就算心里一直流泪

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

我怀念的 是无话不说

我怀念的 是一起唱K

我怀念的 是看完电影

独自开车在MRR2上奔驰

我记得那年生日 也记得那个夜晚

记得4个同行 在凌晨时分

开车上山顶 吹 吹风

看 风景

＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊＊

想问为什么 我们不再一起玩乐

是不是少了她 就无法在一起了呢

自从我离开了那里 你也随后离开

彼此减少联络 是没了首映的机会

还是没了免费票


我怀念的 是那年5月

我怀念的 是那场演唱会

我怀念的 是你们的玩笑

是我最好的生日礼物

我记得那年生日 上了2次云顶

记得那一次被骗 伤得最深的

却是我最好 的 朋友

＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝＝

我怀念的 是那臭豆腐

我怀念的 是Sri Petaling汤圆

我怀念的 是一起逛夜市

吃着Laksa辣辣的感觉

我记得你的生日 也记得看那电影

记得搭着Monorail 逛了整个KL

最美的夜景 最好的时光


谁让我变成柴可夫 谁曾经帮助我

谁是我戏院的Kaki 谁和我一起看首映

谁曾是我晚餐的伴　谁是我哭诉的对象

谁让友情变质　　谁是我最好的朋友



我还想再看Ｐｅｎｃｈａｌａ　Ｌｉｎｋ的风景　我记得那年上山

也记得那山顶鬼屋　　记得４个朋友

在那Ｒｉｄｌｅｙ时　所扮的鬼脸

不知道　还可以　再　重来


谁懂我多么不舍得 这友情

这朋友 那回忆 太甜美


*********************************************************
孙燕姿-我怀念的

作词：姚若龙 作曲：李偲菘

专辑：逆光

我问为什么 那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么 不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍我
还是明白 你已不想挽回什么


想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受


我怀念的 是无话不说
我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动


我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁 记得 谁 忘了


想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕 真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受


我怀念的 是无话不说
我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动


我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
谁 忘了


我怀念的 是无言感动
我怀念的 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛


我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火
最长的相拥


谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔


我还有想要爱你的冲动 我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌 记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
我放手 我让座 假 洒脱


谁懂我多么不舍得 太爱了
所以我 没有哭 没有说

The Preferred Host

Browse to cari.com and saw the discussion between Malaysian Idol& others singing competition..

suddenly brings me back to the host i preferred-- Jien (Soo Kui Jien, the Malaysian Idol host)..

host mah, of coz the look is the 1st point tat attract me..

anyhow, not really know or siao him..

but once met him in one of the restaurant in Taman Tun in 2004..

wahsai~ dark, smiling faces, not really tall >> really charming hahaa..

just like a beachboy..

that time still working in GSC, always hangout TTDI for dinner v my goodfren, marcus.

if not he told me this person looks familiar, I also not realised..

honestly, he really not tat tall..but really charming~

Dicey Business 赌场风云

看了赌场风云，发掘我超爱这部电视剧。
哈哈。。也许最近胃口不同了，渐渐欣赏成熟稳中，又有型的。

每当一看到Dicey Business，就会想起4th episod里的一些情节很相识。。
。。。

Flood

Recently flood again attached Johor state...
in the 1st attacked of the flood, immediate sms a fren who study in Skudai..
that fren should be ok after read the reply...

2nd time of flood, read the newspaper that Yong Peng also infected.
SMS again to another fren..
really long time never meet or keep contact v this fren.
Due to my goodfren issue, i also less contact v this fren..
juz sent an sms to show concern as a fren..
not feeling want to pick up the call from tat fren sumore i m still working..
hope these 2 frenz will have better improvement of the ffrenzship after so long time ago..

很不爽

之前，和朋友通电话时，讨论了我们隔天的Plan。由于是我找她出来，所以决定我到那工作地点去载她，到时回来的时候再载她到工作那儿去拿回她的车。由于当时是我要她陪我，我并不介意做司机。

在电话的另一端，是她BF的声音。那男的建议我follow我朋友的车回到她的家（由于她才搬家，我并不会到她家），让她放好她的车子，再上我的车，到时候我们逛了街，才又送她会到她的家。wasai，当时真是很不爽，最讨厌别人Order/安排这样那样。那男的和我没见过面，竟然这样Order我，真得很生气。根本是浪费时间和车油嘛。

隔天, 就如她BF所愿，由于她说要回家拿东西，就兜了1圈。我不知道她是真的忘了那东西还是依照那男的说法而故意忘了拿东西，总之，只要是我朋友开口，我都OK的。假如真的是故意的话，唉~~

逛了街后，送她回家。就在她家的路上，只有那条1来1往的小路，而原本来的路，竟然也被那些当地居民，因为要争着出那条路口儿挡住了。等了3辆，由陆陆续续的来了4/5辆，让满脸笑容的我，一直瞪着这些司机，并一直打singnal，甚至hon那些Kanasai的人。真是越来越PekCheK。等了15-20分钟，才可以向左转。Pandan Indah 的居民没有交通道德，更无家教！！

Twin Tower 的译名

您好，

关于大马华文规范译名，当看了以下的节目，觉得这应该受到注意一下。

请问哪一个网址有马来西亚最新的华文规范译名？

请问对于"Twin Tower" 双峰塔， 到底是译名为哪一个：1 国油双峰塔2 双峰塔3 双子塔4 双子星大楼

Twin Tower 已是马来西亚具有代表性的建筑物之一，译名当然也要一致。在之前的一个台湾的节目里，让外人看到马来西亚人连译名都会出现很多版本。《台湾脚逛世界》是应大马旅游局的邀请下，来到马来西亚介绍各地旅游景点；而首站就是介绍Twin Tower。可笑的事，在一位本地导游的带领下，竟然对那节目的主持人说Twin Tower 是双子星大楼。看到都差一点儿昏了！其实这也并不是第一次了，之前本地的一位在台湾很有名的女歌手，鱼小姐就曾在节目上提到双子塔 （Twin Tower),还一直兴致勃勃地介绍大马这个代表性的建筑物。身为一位艺人，并身负重任是台X地区的旅游大事，竟然可以把双峰塔介绍成"双子塔"。假如一些台湾的游客之前到过大马，并已知道双峰塔；加上又在一些大马旅游节目听到新的名称（双子塔），没去详细地了解还以为马来西亚有多了一座建筑物呢！ 不知道这是马来西亚旅游局，还是那位本地导游，或是马来西亚华语规范理事会的疏忽？？ （注：并不是刻意去抨击那导游或是那个节目或是甚至任何一个人，只是我们身为大马人，尤其是华人应是用正确并一致的译名是很重要的，是一种对地方，建筑物，甚至对民族的尊重。一个地方就代表着一个国家，甚至代表着那个国家的人民）

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疯了疯了~

最近一定是疯了
一直不停的sms,PWH L19 to 32866
哈哈哈没两下，才topup 不久的credit用完了
天啊。。。
1则SMS说明收费0.50但是确实0.65
在一直不停按下，又topup了。。
一个小时半里就用了70%
终于看到了成绩


哎我还真受不住诱惑~

To enquiries@tourism.gov.my : Good Job Tourism BUT...

Hi there,

First of all, very glad to know that Ministry of Tourism just announce Michael Wong become the spokesman to promote the Malaysia for the Visit Malaysia 2007. And again, the ads are very very nice. Good job!

But still I have something to voice up. When I browse the Ministry of Tourism website, which is www.tourism.gov.my , i only able to see in 1 version, which is English version. Since Michael Wong is the spokesman for Visit Malaysia 2007 and his main role is to attract more and more tourist from countries like China, Hong Kong or even Taiwan. As we all know, 99% of the residents there are all Chinese. If there is a version for Mandarin for this website, its quite convenient for them. Eventhough nowadays, high educated people from these coutries able to read English, but this doesn't mean that others who only mainly know Mandarin won't be the tourist. Who knows these group of people will be Malaysian's biggest income? So why not invest some money to create another Mandarin version to introduce Malaysia?

Another thing I would like to voice up is the information provided is wrong! Recently I watch a programme that introduce about Malaysia. This Taiwam programme mainly intro every country places. Hence, they had been invited to Malaysia by Ministry of Tourism. The name of the programme in Mandarin is "台湾脚逛世界". In this programme, the VJ had been brought around in Malaysia by a tour guide (where I guess this tour guide is arranged by Ministry of Tourism) call Penny. Able to see from here that the first place Panny bring the Taiwanese VJ around is the Twin Tower. But so disappointed is, when Penny intro to the VJ, this Twin Tower in Mandarin called 双子塔. But in fact, the name translate in Mandarin should be 双峰塔. I know its just the name of translation. But if there are many Mandarin name to be translate for Twin Tower, why not we just stick to one name. More than 1 name not only confusing Malaysiam, but also the tourist as well.

When do the research around, able to find out the so called the latest translation of the places name in Malaysia
最新出炉的国家、州与联邦直辖区、州首府、新城市、建筑物及大马货币华文规范译from the cari.com.my website, http://chinese.cari.com.my/myforum/viewthread.php?tid=154139&extra=page%3D1
and this website get the resource from Nanyang newspaper online which is:
http://www.nanyang.com.my/index.php?ch=7&amp;amp;pg=10&ac=392668

If the Nanyang Online Newspaper is publish the correct translation name for Twin Tower, WHY Ministry of Tourism still giving the wrong and confusing information to the oursider especially the media people of Taiwan for this case.I bet, if more and more programme would like to intro Malaysia, the same thing will happen again, and the wrong information will be given again. Let say, in this programme, if the information given by Ministry of Tourism for the mandarin translation is 双峰塔 but its the so called Tour Guide in this programme is telling 双子塔, WHY still finding this kind of people who given the wrong information be the tour guide. I believe, everyone had to know very well all the information related to their job. WHY this tour guide, still can give the wrong translation? This is not the first time happen, because the same thing happened on our famous singer, FISH LEONG, also giving this name 双子塔when intro Malaysia in of the programme. Really hope the person in charged beware of the name of translation. If erally only stick to 1 name, PLEASE Announce it to let everyone know CLEARLY.

(pls:Hereby attached the screenshot of the so called tourguide, Penny with the Taiwanese VJ)

By,
CONFUSED MALAYSIAN

Another surprising day..

Another working Friday, the last day of the week..
listen to the MyFM just bcoz oredi used to it, even i prefer more 988 -- bcoz got michael wong news more mah ..

during the contest of Gor Zai Gu Gu Gu Gor Zai, the DJ, Lam Tak Weng sudenly put guang liang song...

not realy interested in the prize but juz wanna call & try try...
1st call, cannot get in..

2nd try.. opps since manage to call in but nobody pick up the call..
3rd try... tu .. tu .. tu.. shit, someone talk in cantonese, force me to use mu lousy cantonese to talk ..& give the answer in mandarin! but then this DJ quite fast response, lsiten me talk in mandarin faster change to mandarin~ really good..

feel stun and nearly 4got wat to say coz never think of call in & really make it~ yeah...
use the cool voice, not even say hi to him, juz giv the answer..

canot remember wat the DJ crap about after i giv the asnwer
juz know he sound like very very happy for congratula but i still in the shock , & still not able to give back the so call "happy" mood to him
i tot this is live oredi, manatau once he finish congrate, he ask me to say 1 more sentence: "Thank you My FM". Zha dao, i know i have to be so polite to say thank you but bcoz i too shock until 4got oredi, and never never think for ppl will ask for the so call "thank you"
quite "pui fuk" MyFm bcoz one of the reasons they can bcome so successfull bcoz they never 4got to ask ppl to advertise for them!

i might not really get the thing bcoz of no fate.. but anyhow i really hope i can get another thing since i also participate for the web contest.. if i confirm get this, might no chance for the web contest coz all the winners unable to partiacipate in the contests within 1 month...
but i know i wont so lucky, coz anything hope for normally wont get,but sometmies if juz want to play for fun or try try, normally will have the surprise.. another 2 good examples are those contest for movie of magazines..

haha jen also quite shocked when see my call as she confirm the jocelyn is who in the radio oredi.. gosh.....really feel appreciate..

William Ma

William Ma...
remind me the story when i visited my relative last year
flash back all my cousins whether is very close or very very far far relative (like marcus) or others

WM is a quite all, fair, always smile v sexy and aussie slang ppl.
he is really charming..
haha this isthe first time find out i also got such a so called "goodlooking" cousin..
He always like to play PS 2 v my another cousin everytime he at my cousin house.

Miss the chance to visit his house as during that time i went to find my buddy in Curtin.
well, when the time at the airport, bit disappointed he is not there to sent us..
and also quite regret that never took photo v him..

Okie, 2007 , would be another chance to meet him if still got chance to visit there again.
this time will never miss the chance anymore.
Really look forward for this. Hope that time he still in Perth.

Bye ~Sun, Star ,Moon

Friday again..
times goes on..
may be juz only got 2 or 3 more days can see those star,sun & moon
haaahahaha
long time din write bout the sun..
sun looks so cool even say hi, never smiles
still look so smart v his style of walking..
but..
his image really spoil..
by fighting v ppl in the GF
wonder y..because he fight bcoz of a lady in the other dept
both of them oredi got partner..
since ah jen so trust he is not that kind of bad ppl..
well, i trust jen, so means i also trust he still a nice ppl
hard to imagine frenly ppl like him also will act like this..
sun still so charm among them..
met the ah jen last week.,,
discuss about the sun
conclusion made of that fight might be his galgal oredi being grabbed by other ppl,,
so pity..
no wonder seldom see his smiling faces recently..
anyhow he might be the only ppl i saw in this week
due to another 2 oredi fly Away~~

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Moon looks like my fren hubby..
same style , same smile
so shocked when find out this 2 ppl looks alike
is the most fairest ppl among those
but he always v his smiling faces
another frenly ppl there
well as usual..
quite hard to meet them if they are bz
may be only meet fewmonths a while here
then always be the HONG ZHONG FEI YAN
again.. this moon also fly to another place oredi..
another ppl would miss that tao sha peng. ahhaa

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++


here is the last one, star..
here's the story goes as:
ah jen & me.. start notice this fella..
thinking & guessing.. ch or m.. ch or m??the dark fella, with the leather jacket
even the style also like mai lai ren
still remember the photos i took in perth
he describe as i helping the kangeroo doing xxx
bcoz the photo too small
today back to office..
find out he also fly again...
fly is one part of the job..
so nice can always enjoy the food & culture in that country
NO MORE chance meet him liao..
hhaahahah tat day was the last time he bye to me..
bye byebye my shining star..
thanks for sharing the opinion of the extra course,~~

Hope he get wat he want... the traveller~

=========+++++twincle twincle little Star+++++==========

Rest In Peace --- Pei Ying

Pei Pei, Pei Ying & Cathy

after cny, finally back to perlis again..
as usual, every time back here, sneeze again
feel relieve after settle my little AL thing & the new start day...
received a call from my 1st ex roomate, crystal toh
quite long time never heard from her,
the most thing juz sms each other
she bring me a news
our floormate, Pei Ying, passed away
really stunned for this news, duno how to react
heard tat she attacked by the virus
now she in kluang..
it has been along long time seldom keep contact with those block A ground floor fren liao..
but still remember the days we always watch the tv in the TV room
espcially the 才华横溢出新秀
time time i keep notice tat gary yap-- 叶俊岑
everyday every dinner always will see 4 of us, crystal, me, pei pei & pei ying..
2 diff rooms homemates always hangout in the campus in 2001
but after move to block E, seldom meet them
after grad, totally lost contact..
never ever think of the fren bside me will never had any chance to meet again, coz she left forever
Rest In Peace, my fren, Pei Ying~~

++mood++

recently juz fail 1 thing...
haihhh feel very useless
where got ppl fail the 2nd interview?????
shit joce..
pass the walk in one.. but fail the phone one
dream to be in pg broke into pieces.....
=====================================================

long time never cry when driving car
that night, on the way to the office...
duno y..
tears drop..
& outside raining heavily
its really my moody day..
cry may be recently bit stress..
feel sad about the frenship
also feel useless...
cannot see my road in front of me
duno which step i need to take...
this the 1st time i cry after i left GSC (previously cry more times)

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

is the time for me
to decide wat i going to do...

Weird Day

Another OT Friday..
Notice another leng lui join here..
either is TS or NOC
recenlty the star keep stay until very late
wonder y he suddenly msn me
then only know he interested in the leng lui
unfortunately i duno her yet.. hehee
so still not able to intro to him
it seems sumone also quite 8
even sumone said bz , still so free to notice the new ppl in company
when i was on call.. suddenly someone juz stand bhind me and stare at me
really shocked when turn around, find out is tat star v his smiling face
OMG, really feel weird
then again notice the star with his black glasses waving his hand when he want to go back..
again, feel shocked
once again, he said bye to me.. v his smiling face..
wat a weird day..
this is the 2nd time say hi after met him at the entrance tat morning..
+++ +++++++twinkle twinkle little star++++++++++

Luck -- where r u..

long time din hangout v them at KLCC
quite happy after 2 years finally can have early celebrattion v them
enjoy the food at secret resipe until 2 good buddies straight run to the toilet after taken the cakes v empty stomach
once everyone okie oredi, is the time to go back
3 of us keep busy giving the $ to the machine for paying the ticket..
while i was bz taken my coins ,nobody aware about the paid ticket
once in the car, juz realize none of us took the ticket
oh shit.. we loss it
sumone has been taken it
wat to do, go to the secutiry office and paid rm50 for such a good lessons
========================================================
continue our next stop at BU starbucks
i tot i cancountdown & having a wish there after 12am
already finish my only cake before 12am in 10 mins
manatau our goodfren, marcus called
keep asking to come over MV starbucks
whats diff between BU starbucks & MV starbucks?
thinking of marcus just bluffing v us.. so doesn't want to come over there
but when Nan called, still thinking he juz helping his bro to convince us to come over there
by telling tat might be some surprise
========================================================
straight away back hom after 12am
continue with zoe for some TW programmes of Jimmy Lin & Jolin when i slep also no idea
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I was dreamed of "William Ma" on such particular day
William is one of my far far relative i met at perth tat day..
also the most regret thing is never took picture v him
dreamed of we are actulaly having some performance
when me & William are going to have our performance together that time, i was awake by Nan called
wat the ....
when Nan told me i throw Marcus alone at the MidValley starbucks alone last nite
feel abit guildty
guildty, guildty & guildty
IF went to meet him last nite.. i think will still spend the time at the genting for such day like last year
Haih..Sorrie my dear fren........

暧昧

很喜欢这个词。。
也很喜欢这种关系。。
暧昧是彼此有感觉，但不至于成为情侣
也会有情侣之间的动作
会喜欢暧昧，也许是跌过并怕输不起

6/6/06， 是蛮特别的日子。
2年前的这天，尝试过从未尝试的。
开心也同时跌的很惨。。
虽然曾经暧昧关系的人，到最后还能保持朋友关系
甚至还会借Jaring的Username&Ｐａｓｓｗｏｒｄ

今天被婉琳逼问，才发现她不知道这件事
不知为什么过了２年，还是很难启齿
大略的让她知道从ＲｅｄａｎｇＴｒｉｐ　到ＫＬＩＡ看飞机甚至到他家看《Ｈｉ上班女郎》
从３月到６月，从朋友的弟弟到一个在ＭＳＮ很谈得来得朋友
双Ｊ的分开就有如我们，Ｓ＆Ｊ
杰伦是他的Ｉｄｏｌ，不知是不是这样，我也开始注意Ｊｏｌｉｎ
从《Ｍａｙ I Ｌｏｖｅ　Ｙｏｕ》到《我难过》
与其说短暂的恋情；倒不如说是很暧昧关系
只因为有了亲密接触。。

突然很想他

有没有试过和别人ｐｉｌｌｏｗ　ｆｉｇｈｔ　呢？有
也有试过和别人打架。。甚至有body contact & eyes contact
感觉怪怪的。。
还好很理智
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原来这么久没有updated blog 了
一转眼又到5月，又老了
为什么实践不停的转，而我却原地不动？？
忽然很模糊，看不到前方，不知道该怎么走。
还有一些MLM的朋友，不知她们还好吗？
有时候很像他们，很想找她，但不知为何，总觉得彼此的距离越来越远了。。
Suki, Ah Tu, Ah Tong 都应该还好吧。
他们应该早到他们自己的生活了。

回到校园

今天回到校园看看... 果然改变面貌....
踏入校园,发现在bilik guru 旁的 kolam不见了..变成3层楼的课室...
tennis court 旁多了玛涞猪的地方...还蛮新的..
连以前PK SIGＮ IN 的bilik pengawas都变成课室..
蓝球场成了结层楼课室...
甚至周会地方也有屋顶....
和ZOE 回忆起中一到中五...

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F1...1A 时,"盯"上COFFEE (80的)...这多亏华文学会....
常常注意那位骑着黄色脚踏车的他..甚至还因此常到那咖啡店去..
也许当时只是欣赏他很会跳舞..
但是由于同学因为认识了F5的男生,常常patto而旷课...导致她爸找上校长...
由于她爸是政治任人物...加上我爸是很support他的..
所以当我爸知道后,便一直警告我"不可谈恋爱"...
真是太无辜了...就一直无辜到F5,
因为我爸还是每年的警告我,就算以使成年往事...>_<
"欣赏别人的优点来彌补自己的缺点"从F1到F5都没变过...
F1 时也尝试申请成为pengawas, 但是没中...
当时真的很失望....
F2周会时,竟然被笑容很灿烂的人吸引...
当时他代表他的队员和他爸领奖...

To Be Cont...

学海学记

很开心，又找到了2位朋友，是以前在学记认识的（星洲日报的学海学生记者）
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中学时，很少参加活动，自认还蛮内向的
除了那些大楷比赛之外，另一样让我的记忆充满另一种色彩的--2年的学记生活
还记得当时的星洲日报的学海学生记者是学校代表；就是由华文学会选出来的代表， 而每一届的学记大部分都是华文学会的理事。。
中一时常留意到当时每逢星期二的报导，很感新鲜。

于是中二便加入了华文学会的一个小组--学记班
〉〉其实呀是为了要在中三被选中为学记而“铺路”，
为梦想而踏的第一步。。 呵呵

学记班的第一天，有人问我：“据说你爸已是记者，你为何还要参加学记？”
“希望可以亲身体验记者的生活”
就这样出席了好几次的学记班，听了一些讲座，开始了解了“倒金字塔”的写新闻原理
中三那年，便报名学海学记
当时还有其他同班同学也报了名
踏入学长室 SignIn 时，问我那句话的那个人（组席）就通知我被选。。
于是思议，如韦和我便是那年玻利
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真的好兴奋，真的很感谢他。。
很感谢他，让我真的心想事成。。
感谢他，让我从Pelatih Pengawas 到 Pengawas Keceriaan
感谢他，从Pengawas Keceriaan 有机会做了1个月的KetuaPK 到真正成为Pen.KetuaPK
（让我感觉当你默默付出时，是有人看到你的努力）
感谢他 那句：“要责怪人之前，先要称赞那个人”〉〉真的很管用哟
要感谢的那个人，他不但是华文学会组席，也是Ketua PK。。
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中三到中四的2年学记生活还很有意思
在那次的学记训练营里，在槟岛认识了来自北马各校代表，
包括俐鹏与俐雯这俩兄妹。。
妹妹呢很不错，蛮开朗，好动，只是大约和我同高吧~
哥哥呢很会弹吉他，会带动气氛，属于阳光运动型
也认识了槟岛的记者，有蔡振裕，洪东凯。。
之后还在星洲日报的“新春联欢晚会”上见过面。。

三天两夜，几乎天天都被前辈以各类游戏来“折磨”我们。。
试过被奶油，水彩被画在脸上，爬过，蹲过，躺过，跳过。。
认识了几位，但却因为距离，而很少在去参加那些活动，
只是默默的守在学校；
时不时在历年活动，就带着相机，
到处跑跑，到处访问。。

也许是这时开始，才对摄影“动心”
很喜欢拍照，因照片越多被刊出，稿费就越多。
而每次“独导”（独自报导）是，都会给我爸审查过。。 哈哈
很怕“ying sui" 他嘛。。

稿费算是我“打工”的工资吧。。
当cheque一到，看到上面的数字，虽然不多，但很满足。。
这可是我第一次在中学“打工”的生活~~

挥春

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　**　Ｊｏｃｅｌｙｎ　＆　婉琳**

挥春-- 是很多年前的事
已经有6年没有与墨为伍了。。
从小四到中五，都没和墨分开过。
也从小四到中五，硬笔字体起了变化， 得奖名单中并没有我。。很无奈。。
就此专注了大楷+小楷

中一，小楷没了，就继续我拿手的
从小学到中学，婉琳是我的好友，战友
我们从不错失与墨有关的比赛，一起以朋友身份参加，战友身份比赛，
在以朋友的身份一起领奖。。
不管任何奖项，都不会影响彼此的交情。
越战越勇，越战越乐〉〉就是心得
就算过程参杂了伤悲与辛酸，还是很满意结果。

有一年的佳节，第一次参加了挥春比赛
那时是在群益（我们的母校）旧礼堂。。
挥着大大的毛笔，手调在半空中，画来画去。。
接近交卷时，却写错字。。
心慌了，一直骂自己，
也一直开始重写，力度和速度加快，
出来的效果还不错嘛。。
当时只是用了３刻钟就完成了一对对联，有点沾沾自喜。嘻嘻
很幸运，婉琳和我都上了台。
就算是个小小的安慰奖，也很满意了
印象中是唯一一次的安慰奖（其他包括潮清的都还蛮满意）
毕竟这是第一次，也是最后一次参加挥春。。
还蛮有成就感的喔：）
那时应该是初中吧。。

这也许是我一直参加华文学会的原因。。Ｃｏｆｆｅｅ　也是在那时出现的。哈哈

还是很感谢当时的几位伯乐，
小４　：庄彩妮老师－－提拔和推荐我参加大楷班的班主任，当时大楷班的只是小５＆小６的人
：潘玉华老师－－当时大楷班的负责老师，也是教我的人
小５　：一位吉打的退休老师，也是当时潮清比赛的评审之一，一直和他学习，也是令我的大楷生活有了美好回忆

虽然大楷生活只是回忆的一部分（直到中学生涯结束），也谢谢他们让我有那么精彩的中学生涯，谢谢！

Finding PPL

browse through the frenster...
oredi getting 2 of 3 ppl i wanna find
just wanna see hows the life of them recently..
but still unable to find the Coffee
y so many ppl none of them also got contact v Coffee??
weird weird..
anyway i won't giv up...

Concert Of Celebration For YTL

very excited to attend this ochestra as this is my 1st time to attend such occation
heard from fren's bro that even the PM also attend

reach my fren house using the NKVE
start to prepare by simply "coloring the faces" & change the dress
then 2 pigs waiting at the dining

when reach KL sentral, many ppl park the car at the parking which was sponsor by the YTL
many ppl wearing formal dress v the tie & shirt going to the platform 3
pairs of eyes looking at so "dress up" ppl appear at the KTM
waiting for the KTM at the plartform 3
so long didn't have such feeling... we only have such experience when we were still at inti nilai last time...
everyone at the platform 3 with their own dinner dress
some of r the VVIP of the YTL
the train reach & headed to the Sentul
then follow by the buses

b4 the concert start, every ppl going to diff colors tent for the beverages..

the band play the song

and made me flash back for the time when my school , smkps also got the pancaragam..

every year sport day sure din miss their show time

but everytime , if better dun go to the so call"toilet"

tis is the 2nd time of using the "toilet", dont feel will go for the 3rd time..

Agong & permaisuri Agong & PM also attended the concert
the concert start at 8.30pm

Russell Watson>>a new name to me as i seldom listen to these type of songs..

i tot it was a boring concert but...

my eyes turn sharp after see the program as one of the song was the --Music Of The Night > song of Phantom Of The Opera..

He sang some of his album songs, some in diff language until duno whether he ssang right anot..

quite like another Song--Volare
he is a great singer & the chior also a great team..
the Sentul Park full with nice song & nice music..
until the end, the audience keep clapping for "enchore"

the rain come & when everyone going to leave the place..
suddenly the fireworks full up the air..
OMG, 1st time saw the fireworks juz above the head...
its so so so so amazing & the air also filled up v the smoke..
playing around for 5 mins, then one part of the concert showing the "YTL50" fireworks
my fren, she keep recording this
feel so touch~

good job for all the YTL employees include those ppl from JWmarriot (F&B) , starhill , ritz carlton & so on...
-start to search these kind of songs~

Star & Sun Day

wahhaa today getting a goood moood
first, early morning 1st time saw the star wearing different than normal days
hehehee looks a bit different & a bit taller than b4

then juz now juz saw my SUN
OMG this is the 5th week then only able to see my SUN
well, to me this is the last 2 weeks i work morning..
the last 2 chances to meet both of the sun & star
well really have a good moood this morning

hoohohhhoooooooooo

hurray for star & SUN,have a nice nice day~~

Days Without Sun

Another Monday morning, as usual , this is another raining day
feel very cold & very sleepy for such nice weather
this is the 3rd weeks raining, tat means 3 weeks no sun at all
juz like i also didn't see my Sun for 3 weeks continuouesly oh no
my mood seems like the weather , nothing can warm me up at all except the hot hot sun

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sun & star had gone out bcoz of their duty far far away
juz now went to refresh myself.. suddenly spotted something
is STar, Star is back... hahaaaa
star is back , is this also meant that Sun also back?
or Sun still on duty alone there?
star still very dark esp wearing the dark color shirt sumore
where is my Sun? feel very cold...
i need sun to warm me up...

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jieio>> how about ur stars?

Accident

yesterday on the way back home, along the Jalan Genting Klang, had a wrost experince in my life
i move from the right lane to the middle lane with the speed of 80km/h
the distance between my car & the car infront of me (CAR A) still got 200m
there still got 2 cars in front of car A
but all of sudden, i have no idea why the 2 cars in front of the car A suddenly stop in the middle of the road
it seems tat one of the car want to take over the other car
hence the Car A also stop
had no choice & need to have emergency break
even the whole road can hear my emergency break
the high pitch sound suddenly surround that area & even my tyre also got the smoke come out
i duno wat to do beside try my best to stop my car between this distance..
luckily.. juz like the movie... the car managed to stop b4 hitting the car A
so so so lucky man.. & there is no car bhind me.. else i also need to spend my night at the police station oredi..
thanks for my car break
everything happen on 8 oct 11.50pm, few mins b4 9 Oct
the car stop & i was totally stunned...
my mind was blank & even feel very helpless if anything happened to me
i duno wat to do at all...
may be its time for me to find someone can giv me support in my life

Fish Leong Concert

3rd concert i watch in this year....
but 1st time go stadium putra watch....
from Jay concert at stadium merdeka, Jolin concert at Arena Stars until Fish concert at Stadium Putra, diff time go v diff ppl
i start the Sat day when fetching my dearest cousin, Ann Ann at KJ then straight go to Low Yat
park the car at BTS as usual (bcoz i prefer the parking there) then across the road to Low Yat
suddenly notice one familiar ppl..
even can meet my exclassmate during coll when accrossing the road..
teoh, lip tatt & jeff.. wat a surprise
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after bz squeezing v ppl at low yat & sg wang..
we start our next destination, Bikit Jalil
its raining along the road esp at sg besi there..
but quite lucky as its so smooth all the road & we reach the BJ at 5pm..
its very very early but the BJ oredi crowded v yellow red & yellow blue ppl
so many supporters bet Sel and Perlis
although we r perlis lang but if compare v selangor fans, perlis supporters juz queater of them
sumore the 1st malaysian idol, jacklyn victor also performing at the sel stage
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the concert delay from 8pm to 9pm.......
so sleepy at the hall there...
b4 the concert start, still need to be forced to heard the" negaraku"
oh gosh...
Fish is a great singer can sing very well in LIVE
she really got the voice
like the songs since the "YI YE ZHANG DA"album's song like"only can hug you" v guang liang, and "sorry, i love you"
since F1 start to 'yan xiong' michael & victor, aldo find out that local artist are quite well also like fish & penny & Z chen
support them bcoz they r malaysian also.. 'kaki lang' mah

*note: 4 Oct, my Sun is coming ... hahahaha but unable to see my star....

this is quite touch concert...
the 1st surprise VIP is a sweet Vj send a flower to her
this sweet VJ is Jay gf, hou pei chen
1st time saw her but still dun like her style of talking
she talk seems uneasy & not natural at all

She sang alot of her nice nice song...
All of her songs she sang is the complete song
it bcome a super large KTV that everyone follow her to sing together

the 1st VIP in her concert is her cousin, Biao Ge, Z Chen
both of them talk back the old days when they stay together
sound like the story around us
ZChen always ask' LuLu' go to buy the mamee & mimi for him
Z Chen only giv 1/5 mamee for the so called'lulu'-- Fish

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the soecial part of this night is a game for the couple seat's couples
those couples need to kiss their partner once the camera was on them
hahhahaah wat a lovely memory
some couples very shy but still got steady couples
those couples who able to get 1 envelope from their seat will come out the stage to propose to their partner
sumore got Victor & Fish sang a song bside this couple.. sure quite memorable for them
1st time saw Victor at the concert...
very nice & humour
like the words go : A Smile A Day, Keeps The Bad Mood Away...
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for the "End Call" part, all the audience didn't corporate to shout"END CALL" thisword
& this made the musician until to follow the audience "End Call" by playing the drum
anyway Fish still going out
sing last 2 songs..
the screen show many singers include MAY DAY , penny, JIA QIAN, & so on sing her song"FEN SHOU KUAI LE" together...
Fish started singing this song & suddenly 2nd surprise VIP come out & sing v her together
she is >> JIA QIAN
what a nice VJ
seriously, everyone surprised & the environment seems very very high
once they finish this song..
fish start her story again
she keep on crying when her mind flash back the day she start to be a singer
she thanks LEE ZHONG SHENG alot & this remind her bout her papa..
the VCR showing some pic s of her papa bcoz her papa passeed away
she cry & cry & also her mum
both of them look alike
this is the most touch part!

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sharp 12am, everything over
concert last for 3 hours
step out from stadium & fond out perlis lost 0-2 to selangor (my dear Ann Ann quite concern about perlis, hahahaa...)
this is the 1st time hang out v her after she back to Msia for so long
hope still can hang out v her for the next year Michael concert~~

My Star, My Sun

Since when me & her start to have our own star from the company
at the beginnnig, they are the ppl that motivate us to work everytime met them
but my fren, she got many stars , from outside and also from inside
for me, i only got 1 star
until now i still wondering y i take this as my star
my star is a cool ppl,... never smile to ppl if u not the person who smile to him 1st
my star seldom meet him here as we work diff time
my star always bring a bag
my star is too dark until my dear fren tot he was malay>>wahahhaa
Star could be very cool as night is very cold
but the Sun must be very sunny
Since sometimes i working at morning, starting to find another one to be my Sun
My Sun is the ppl who always block the sight when look at the star
My Sun only appear if my star is not around
My Sun always can hear his voice everytime he was here
My Sun is more talkative (due to his job) than star
My Sun always use the Skpe until here also can hear the conversation
My Sun & star also quite dark due to thier job functions
never met My Sun at old place
My Sun & My Star bcome the motivation to come to work
they are the ppl who can cheers up me

suddenly thinking of my ex colleague, Kreisler Buy
he is the first ppl come to intro himself when my 1st day at GSC
he is a happy go lucky ppl
always can cheer ppl up when u r sad
he always cheers me after i scolded by my dear boss last time
never had a nice colleague b4
anyhow after i left there, he also resign...
i like the movie Kreisler handle>> The Shutter
He really proved to other ppl this movie can earn more profit after iimplement his marketing plan
ppl expect the movie only can be 300k but at the end the movie managed to reach 900k
feeling very warm to had such a nice colleagua last time..
appreciate for his encouragement ,thanks my dear fren
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In Fact, i still finding the ppl to be my star & sun in my life


**Jieio>>Jie li is NA de... someone juz inform me.. hahahaaaa...

MooD~

today at the lobby, met 2 guys from other companies...
one of them keep smiling & look very sunny...
great man.. when see someone smile, the mood also bcome nice...
hahhaa no wonder my colleague said my mood is good..
seriously i prefer frenly ppl v smiling faces..
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Mood change very fast at night
after chatting v tat N, found out he quite like Mr S
hahaha... well.. i wont so stupid this time,..
but duno y..
feeling wanna cry..
may be mind flash back the stupid thing again...
sumore the YiDa song>>Yi MIAO DE GAN DONG keep in my mind..

Net Fren

recently know a net fren from ahmoi.com i think... really cannot recall
as usual, we chat in msn messanger..
again the chatting life
this netfren, N
while chatting v N, find out he really similar with Mr S
N start thinking tooo much b4 even really meet...
Really dun wan to repeat the last experience anymore
dun wan to hurt myself again
may be last time too easy to blieve things that chatting at the messanger, tat y cause the 66 happen
for me, i wont take things too fast.. coz i know, i will hurt myself
As a normal Taurus ppl, i only suitable to take things step by step
if ppl unable to take things step by step , then very sorry...
this is my way to protect myself..

these few days really did somethings that i had planned for long time
Firstly go for ear piercing at S Piramid...
it jus took 2 hours tp eat & finish all my things at Piramid...
so crowded there on sunday....
even the ATM also full v ppl...
after finish ear piercing, both ears a bit pain
but quite luckly coz until now my ears stil not yet bengkak or itchy
may be i control the food... not dare to have itchy ears like last time

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Monday, 29 August
finally go to the uptown to apply another line for the internet
really very malaysian, all the things done by last minute
hahaha luckily, its very fast & easy
Appreciate the TM ppl there... so frenly & patient
on tuesday TM ppl oredi come to the house to install the phone
hopefully they can faster settle my modem...
hehehe waiting for the day~~~~

Tayar Puncat

1 week ago.. after come out from Giant...
accidentally spotted something
omg, tayar puNcat Again..
faster do a quick search my HP
-oh no.. unable to find any guys which are close to me & can help me to solve this thing..
-its time for me to maintain my frenship v my guys' frenz...
hahahaaa... pity.. the only ppl tat i can look for is tong.. but this fren he helps me alot.. cannot always trouble him...
luckily the workshop i always go got open on sunday
this is the chance i can take out the workshop name card & calling the ppl
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thank god, everything settle after the work shop ppl come and fix it..
sometimes, its quite important to take the name card from ppl & always keep it on the purse as u will need it one day~~

Mega Sales

连续3个星期天逛街，感觉真得很累
最近在杂志上看到的1件裙， 很适合dinner dress
可是没缘分， 从midvalley 到One U 甚至 Sunway Piramid,
Miss Selfridge brown color dinner dress 都卖完了
很泄气耶

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these few days... really wasted a lot..
anything i tot i can finish, manatau everything left half then through away..
Not sure whether is bcoz of last week the mood was not good bcoz influence by SOMEONE
hahhaa... anyway.. spend the money is my most happy way to release myself..
feel very 败金 oredi..
Its so enjoy spending when u use the money tat u earn by urself..
Rm500 in 5 hours habis at Mid Valley...

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i slep very early form sat until last nite..
after back then stuck in front of the TV then nap at the sofa..
wake up then go to rooom continue sleep
not sure is my mental tired or my body tired or juz wanna escape something... or juz wanna hide myself out

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speding the whole evening at the Apsent Spa at TTDI
start another course
then trying the spa which included in the course..
very shy when changing the clothes..
really had fun time at the bath tub... hohohoohooo
next time wanna try the"hot Blanket"
hope i will finish my couse b4 Dec....
hehehehe

Haze Gone, Mood Back

2day... finally able to see the KLCC & KLTower from the office..
hehe yeah.. everything get to normal..
even my mood.. also get to normal..
although sometimes still geram of the ppl
>>coz never choi me for the msg..
but anyhow.. thanks those show the concern on me..
hey frenz.. i know wat i mm doing,,
so dun worry k? hehe..

>_<

this morning, finally raining after hazzy for so long..
finally can feel ab it fresh air....
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browse some web & go to one blog....
read & read,,,,
suddenly i clear my mind....
push myself out from the pass memory
yess PASSS memory...
then i moody again...
dunno y i always so easily influence by ppl.....
suddenly feel very diff to breath...
so sad in heart...
long time dun have such feeling oredi...
i think i was addicted....
not by the drugs but by ppl...
I believe i can manage to control myself...
will recover as long as no more contact, chatting, msn, yahoo or anything ...
pls bless me...

Bless You, Fren

Someone very happy & having sweet times recently..
may be this fren finally found wat she want...
as her goodfren, i always support her choices ( although i wanan be the HONG NIANG but no choice, i dun have the chance to be the HONG NIANG )
just wan my frenz bside me always happy
sadness go far far away from her..
She is a nice & "straight forward" ppl....
she is the one who always acc me go to the sri petaling pasar malam every tuesday to eat the "Tau Fu Fa Tong Yuen"

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Someone very down recently
He got alot of choices need to decide,...
study ? work? work? study? gal A? gal B? gal C?
he also facing his problems since the secondary school until now..
there is no returns in love
just be urself..
i know he might be angry me.......
he seems to be so bz until 1am still in the GSC IOI Mall
hey my dear fren, morning is ur part time only... better concerntrate on ur study although its twice a week at night
this fren really enjoy the time working part time there..
this means that my recommendation for u is the right thing right? hehehhee

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Someone is looking forward to going back home..
Almost 5 months working in the new company....
feeling that she is a bad gal...
Always only think go back home everytime facing problems & getting hurt & sad
but this time..
she just wanna go back watch her fav Astro.... ahahahhaah
bad again.. so miss the Tv right there
anyone wanna meet this bad gal, pls meet her bet 8 Sept until 16 Sept in Perlis
Muahhahaha...

Angry

I was so angry when i trying to make the booking at the Air Asia juz now

the stupid AirAsia calendar didn't show the month of September.... keep showing 2 months of October..feeling very irratating & totally not convenient to do the so call online booking...

SUmore when i check on the call center... trying to make the toll free call.. 1300 889933
the operator sound" thank you for calling Air Asia, our operating hours are off from 8am to .... bla.....

shit.. cannot make booking right now.. feel very low mood.. & wanna punch ppl.....

Snow.幸福

The moment in the snow house
Step Into this place after 1 year ++
same place, same snow, same staircase but ppl are diff
having a fun time with 2 frenz by thowring the "ice" to each other..
but their attack still can tahan
but still unable to play something in the snow house

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juz a bit miss the time when we finish our viva on Friday last year...
most of us go up genting..
we gather in the small snow house..
each other release the tention by throwing the "ice"
some give fierce attack..
i was the victim..
even the shirt inside also wet
really miss my ex classmates..
this is the first time & also last time so many ppl gather & play around after so many semester
now everyone at diff places...
hope they enjoy their life now
hope they really Xing Fu -- 幸福

wish everyone 幸福

Blind Mind

Recently my mind getting blur blur...
i like to lay down during the raining day & start day dreaming...
dream a lot of things...just as if i was in the movie... put myself into something...
& think of the romantic thing... m i getting someting wrong???
but in fact.. everythihng i dream wont come true...
most of the time if my mind suddenly cross by something... tat thing might bcome true as i had experience for many times like
If i was the gal inside the red iswara car next to the driver seat... But at the end, he fetch me using the bike... had some sweet & sour memories for few days.. I need to thanks him for giving me the chance to force me to learn & grown up after 1 week
Suddenly thinking of sumore & praise him deep in the heart & he was one of the ex classmate in ICM & after the trip from genting, theres rumours between us...and the guy now still in his hometown while i in kl...

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quite enjoy the raining day ... may be bcoz of the wet wet weather & can have a nice dream night.. but most of the time i sleep at the morning...
its very very very very irratating if somebody call at the time while i was still asleeep especially during my working days..
hopefully the person ask for the favor "SEK ZOU" la..
if wanna call me, also call me during my off days...
else i also lazy to lend a hand

生活感慨

很多時候 不知道自己是為了甚麼而活
也許只是 盲目地過著重覆又重覆的日子
時間一天一天過了 心卻一天一天老了
是自己太累了 還是太早看穿了,看透了?

從小 一直不停地聽到很多關於自己身邊的事物
從家事,為人處事,工作,生活,政治甚至到自己的情感
真不知哪一天會有寧靜的空間給自己

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>待續

Car

Has anyone take 1 min to double check on ur car after u lock it?
just to make sure everything has been lock?
I think.... i will spend more time on lcoking & checking after i lock the car...
After today~

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My colleague... on the way to work..
he spend 20 mins to talk to his frens at the Maju Junction after he park his car along the small path... the car juz park bside the shot lots....

Once he back from the ATM & he got shocked bcoz the Kancil has been disappeared...
He tot somebody has play some magic that cause his car disappear from his sight
but after that, he got stunned once the old chinse ah pek told him his car oredi drove away by some Malays
he totally blank & the thing cross in his mind>> he lost his car since he has counted Malay frens
He call his fren then only they call the police..
At the other side, our TL keep calling to the colleague to come for working but still nobody pick up the call... just like someone has lostin the world... totally no response (this is because we need to inform TL earlier if we not able to come for work on time)
9pm ...
10pm ...
11pm....
12 something.... finally saw the familiar face, our dear colleague is back to work!!
then the story continue>>>suddenly all of us gather to hear the story~
after call the police...the police came & told him will go ronda for his car without asking the num plates!
Deep in his heart, he keep scolding the police how to find the car without asking the plate number
Once they reach the police station, the police start to SHOW them how to break into a car in few mins... He got Stunned Again..
he claimed he never lock the gear lock bcoz he tot he only away for some time...
he did the police report without the IC, Lisence, Handphone, & some important document for the Court...
Reason>> all gone with the car
after long long bla bla bla....
everyone heart keep beating... the hearts start to flies out from the 14th floor of John Hancock & go to the parking place...
all keep worries about own car...
during break... we all go down to double check on the car.. finally our cars are safe..
time passs again..
6 something am.....
the call from police to my colleague...
i keep hearing "thank you sir , thank you sir" to the ppl he talk to
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later check with him, they finally found his car
there is a road block on tat nite
the police block a car...
the kaki drug ppl unable show the lisence..
the malay was caught....
so lucky that found back....
else he will lost rm25000++
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pls spend 1 more min after locking the car...
juz to make sure everything is lock firmly...
else u will be the next victim..

一直很安靜

她坐在梳裝台前，任由眼淚無聲無息地滴落。顫抖的手指在手機上猶豫，不知該用怎樣的詞句才能掩飾心裡的悲傷和空洞。

安安最不想發生的事，終於還是發生了。

這幾天安安一直心緒不寧，一股莫名的怪異感襲上心頭，徘徊不去。憑直覺，她知道和志軒有關，因為自上次與志軒聊過朋友間流傳他和她的閒話後，這種感覺就沒間斷過。電話里的志軒仿佛想說甚麼，又想澄清甚麼，卻又吞吞吐吐，半天下來，盡是說些不著邊際的無聊話。

這是坦率的志軒從來不會有的言行，安安一直在猜測這男人到底為了甚麼事變得如此扭扭捏捏、欲言又止。

是不是，他戀愛了？

安安的心神越來越恍惚，不踏實的感覺像海浪般一波一波地席捲而來，讓她手足無措。

最後，她鼓起勇氣發了個非常直接的訊息給他，等了半天，終於收到他的回覆。

是的，他戀愛了……

她坐在梳裝台前，任由眼淚無聲無息地滴落。顫抖的手指在手機上猶豫，不知道該用怎樣的詞句才能掩飾心裡的悲傷和空洞。

“恭喜你！眾里尋她千百度，終於給你找到了你的夢中情人！我的直覺還真準，猜你戀愛了還真的戀愛了！”

她的遣詞用字依然開朗活潑，志軒完全沒有疑心，只是好奇地想知道她為何會猜到這件事。

“因為你變了，而且你還說溜了嘴，說你找到了，雖然你後來極力掩飾，但女性的直覺你是瞞不過的！”

要怎麼告訴他，因為他變得體貼了溫柔了，有了戀愛中男人該有的風度？該怎麼告訴她說她在乎他，所以特別留意他的一舉一動？

要怎麼告訴他，此刻的她想抱住他痛哭一場？

不，她甚麼都不能說。她不能說她有多在乎他；不能說當她知道他戀愛時，她的心在淌血，她失了魂；不能說當她知道他對她的溫柔不是因為她而是因為另一個女孩時，心里有多苦澀……

安安不能說。如果她說了，她將連待在他身邊的機會都失去。她已經沒有了他的愛情，所以更不能失去他的友情。
她突然明白了一直被她罵笨的雯雯的感受。她急於向雯雯傾訴她的失意和難過，於是逕直衝進雯雯的房裡。

“雯雯……志軒他……”

安安只說到這裡，就投入她的懷里痛哭失聲。

雯雯起初有點吃驚，很快的就了然於胸。志軒應該有了情人吧？否則以安安超強的忍耐力，絕不會如此失態。

她倆都是一直安靜地等待某人，等待他們回首時發現在闌珊處的她們，然而，他們發現的卻是其他人。

於是她們只能繼續安靜地待在原地，看著一對戀人的喜怒哀樂，不知道女主角何時才會退下，輪到她們上場。

笑面迎人，背里垂淚的她們卻甘之如飴。也許這就是愛情……

愛情里沒有聰不聰明，只有願不願意。於是她們選擇了願意，選擇了笨……

“雯雯，我很痛苦，但我無法放棄他……我不知道我能不能看著他們親熱卻無動於衷……我不知道會不會有一天在他的面前失控……可是，可是我不想失去他……”

她遞了張紙巾給安安，輕輕地撫摸她的頭髮。

“安安，你見過我為愛不顧一切陷下去。妳曾罵我執迷不悟，你曾很理智地給我分析，現在你應該明白，我不是執迷不悟，而是執迷不悔……我們都知道這種感情毫無報酬可言，可是卻依然一頭栽進去……我至今無悔，因為我愛過……我很用心地愛著他，為他付出。就算以後我不愛了，我也一樣感激上天安排他出現在我生命里……”

安安望進雯雯清澈的眼里，她看到一個女子意志堅定地在呵護她的愛情，不期然地想起了她最愛的那首詞：

如何讓你遇見我

在我最美的時刻 為這

我已在佛前 求了五百年

求祂讓我們結一段塵緣

佛於是把我化作一棵

長在你必經的路旁

陽光下慎重地開滿了花

朵朵都是我前世的盼望

當你走近 請你細聽

顫抖的葉是我等待的淚水

而當你終于無視地走過

在你身後落了一地的

朋友啊 那不是花瓣

那是我凋零的心”

她不知道自己能不能像雯雯那樣堅持她的愛，只知道志軒無視地走過她的生命，她只能任由凋零的心墜落滿地。

星洲日報／城人小說‧文：燕子‧2005/06/07

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this is a very very nice article... it show those ppl feeling.... i had such feeling b4... but not now...